~Race Against Time~

I'm supposed to write this for you,

But no ink leaves the pen.

It just doesn't seem real,

This situation we're in.

I had a notion of forever,

But forever doesn't seem to fit.

I find everyday a challenge,

Racing against time and death.

I fear losing,

You never knowing how I feel.

But I love you,

And that's for real.

I can't wrap my mind around it.

I'm just not ready for you to go.

You need to read the words,

They sit echoing in my head,

Lacking literal ability,

They remain captive.

I know they're trying to break free,

But maybe they hide in fear,

Denying the truth,

Truth that goodbye has come.

It's a race against time.

Please hold on,

You have to know.

I love you,

And that's for real.

~Replay, Rewind~

One final hug

Somewhere I think I knew

Door closes to goodbye

Just what was I to do

A fleeting moment

I just wanted to pause

Desperately holding on

As nearer the end draws

Replayed again and again

Would I change a word

Talk, cry, learn

Listen until all is heard

Your face, your voice

Memories fill my mind

Longing for the past

Can't we just rewind

Fear of pain

Avoiding an end

Did I do enough

Broken heart to mend

If you had a chance

To say it all

Would you take it

Or put up a wall

I had my chance

Hope it was enough

Begging you to stay

God this is rough

Always my hero

I wish you could stay

But the truth I know

I'll settle for today

~Masquerade~

How can you know me

When the girl in the mirror is a stranger

Ready for the masquerade

You see the fake

She lies

Hiding within her own imperfections

A con-artist at best

Just trying to get by

A smile and a laugh

Real tears come with the setting sun

Perfection is the aim

Longing to be okay

They believe it

Healing comes with time

But time is all but gone

Demons wait to be released

Outside skies are clear and sunny

Inside feels so cold and lonely

Convincingly played

The scheme has worked

Fool the world

Spare the grief

Hide from truth

Lose Her