~Final Thoughts~

I am choking on the smoke

Scrambling for a taste of oxygen

Flames flash terror in my eyes

Trying to see through the darkened wall

In wake of losing myself

I set the world ablaze

Hiding within the smoke

I wanted to push you away

But here I stand, scared and alone

Frantically trying to get to you

What I knew I needed all along

Self-destruction claims again

Trapped with no way out

The smoke draws the final breath of air

A final thought, a final try

Why didn't I let you in?

You were there all along

Fighting the rage, trying to get to me

Bigger flames couldn't keep you out

Battling the firewall with heart and love

Self-sacrificing to fight for me

Through my stubborn ways and will

Now it seems I've gone too far

It's not fair, I know

I'm sorry, I never wanted you to hurt

But selfishly I locked you out

I see it now through thickening debris

Cloudy air offers a settling glimpse

Such love is clear in your eyes

How could I be so blind?

A final thought, a final try

Why didn't I let you in?

~Change~

The same rushing water thunders through the trees

A brilliant orange fills the sky with the tiring sun

A scene so familiar, yet so much has changed

One year ago I sat with a paper and a pen

Writing words of emotions foreign and new

Proclaiming freedom so full of hope

But that was then and I have learned change

Feeling lost in a constantly spinning world

Drowning in an ever-rising ocean

Losing my way, I cannot breathe

How did one year get so far away?

I long for those feelings again

Reading with hope of restoration

But for now I am empty and alone

~Return~

A recurring dream seeping back into mind.

Echoes of what was and hopes of what will.

Somehow I thought you were gone.

A faded memory of heart's first wound,

But that is merely a wish.

Not faded, not gone, but buried.

Hiding away as oceans peel layers back.

Uncovering the depths of the soul.

Breathing air to a dying wish.

Small glimpse of light breaking through,

And I am back to the start.

This time with a broken heart.

~Overtake~

The poison conquers your brain.
We stand suffering silent pain.
A darkened lie so true.
All along somewhere we knew.
Behind the stone wall you hide.
Standing guard over ridiculous pride.
It's not you, we are aware.
Even so, It's just not fair.
Angry words meet angry tones,
Beating us down with heavy stones.
Hopeful we wait for an end.
Knowing all too well the beginning trend.
Pain and frustration breed heavy tears,
Weighing down in tired years.
Bad endings, good endings both in sight.
Your choice, is it worth the fight?

~Karen's Heart~

Your heart so big and full of love,
Has left us now for heaven above.
The stories and jokes we will miss,
But with happy thoughts we reminisce.
You left a legacy so proud and true.
What was right, you always knew.
Leading with love and caring with heart,
Your example got us off on the right start.
Always a happy face and a kind word,
And a vibrant laugh that will forever be heard.
The memories and good times will live on,
Even though it’s hard to admit that you’re gone.
It’s a comfort to know the angels directed your way,
And that we’ll be seeing you again someday.
Our hearts will always hold your memory tight,
And promise to help us here in this earthly fight.
I miss you, I love you, and thank you so much!
Your heart beats within the lives you touch.